Wednesday, August 25, 2010

智慧牙

拖拖拉拉两年了,牙齿最终受不了
很熟悉的疼痛,知道是时候解决了
其实很早以前就知道这是结果,但就是没有勇气踏上那一步
因为听说手续蛮恐怖的,都是听说的
昨天,我终于踏上了那一步我两年前就该选择的一步
听着牙医讲解过程,心里就冒出千千万万个冒号!!天啊~~~~~~什么???把我打晕算了
很想拔脚就逃,然而~我知道我还是逃不了连夜的疼痛折磨
铁下心,做了吧!
医生很温柔,首先帮我搽上少许的麻醉药在牙齿的四周,或许是减少打针的疼痛。
然后就开始在牙肉上打针,不知道被插了多少次,反正就是很多次,
慢慢感觉到有少许的麻痹,医生叫我漱口,越多次越好,漱口的同时麻醉药慢慢散发~开始发效用了。躺下来,再等几分钟,手术正式开始~
全程我都闭着眼睛,知道医生首先拿着手术刀,在我的牙肉上切,然后再用钻,钻进牙骨,直至整只牙呈现出来,然后就把它把出来.听起来很恐怖,但我都没感觉到疼痛, 甚至都不知道牙齿已经被拔出来了,而且这只发生在5 分钟之内,医生花比较长的时间在缝补伤口~就这样~两年的煎熬在不到三十分钟的时间解决了。
有一种痛快感,一种释放, 一种解脱~ 百感交集啊~
最重要~有心爱的人陪在身边,害怕才没有一直占据。
因为怕痛,所以都很准时吃药,嘻嘻,庆幸到目前为止都没有剧痛。
一切的不安终于烟消云散~能够自由自在的噘食物
这种感觉真美好! :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

没有什么

没有想埋怨的意思

只是有少少的寂寞

少少的不喜欢一个人待着

还有

找不到一个人来说话


Thursday, August 12, 2010

了解

有多少男人能够真正了解女人

为什么我们无缘无故闹情绪?

如果他们懂得数日子

应该不难懂

奇怪了~男人不都自称数学专才吗?

但为何对这女人,却变成白痴了呢?

你可以不了解女人为何发脾气

但你一定要接受,这是女人的权利!

Monday, August 9, 2010

毕业

啊~才想起去年毕业的时候,都没写过任何东西来记载

八月九日,就这样一年过去了
还来不及回忆,这么快,就这样的过了
现在,能够用的字眼也只有还记得,想当初,那时候。。
曾经在这么一天,我是笑得多么产灿烂,
就连我爸都说看得出我是由内心发出来的快乐

对啊,是因为脱离了念书的苦海
对啊,是因为离别了不喜欢的人,事,物
对啊,是因为我早已经放开了自己,以及曾经最在乎的事情
对啊,是因为我知道我一定会活得更自在,更美好

以前写日记都希望有个人会读到,想要得到他人的回应
现在呢,想把写日记当作是一种情绪抒发,最重要的是把自己的想法写出来,
写出来后人就轻松多了,不再那么沉重。
才那么短短一年,人就会有那么多的改变啊
现在才明白
善变的是人们,而感情始终还是停留在它暂停的地方

毕业了
人长大了
回忆依然存在
只是人啊~您飘零到何去何从了呢?

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Used to...

I used to be an active blogger, posting everyday just hope to seek attention from people that I care.
I used to be so stupid, thinking that everything that I wrote, they will eventually read it, and then will get to know more about me and what I wanted.
Since when I had lost the initiative to write anymore? Then when I want to start to write again, I found it was hard for me to make a start.
Sometime when I had made the start, I just didn't know how to continue it...
Sometime, I just couldn't make an end.

U may find my post are mostly hanging somewhere, bring you to nowhere after reading it.
Is that also implying how am I right now?
I don't used to express my own feeling anymore, since...
I've been keeping myself too much at the deepest place of my heart. I never wished to dig it out again, because I knew I'm gonna live a better life than dwelling back to the past.
But somehow, the past was the thing which affected the most on how are you gonna be now.
Because of you were afraid of something in the past, therefore you won't ever go near or do that same thing again, although you know you might be getting a different results.
Is this showing that I'm kind of always feeling insecure inside? I tend to think alot, and react against my rational thinking. I could be a reasonable person when I was asked to give opinion on other people's stuff, but not my own stuff.

Perhaps this is the post to boost me to write again :)
This is what I got today, more than all the others I had in my draft, over the past year...

Thank you~ for reading it, if and only if.. someone found this blog.

Monday, August 2, 2010

所有能接受与不能接受的

我不能接受所有我不能接受的

这是原则,永不变的原则

我不能像任何人因为生命中的变数,而改变最初衷的自己

这是我对自己的固执

也是对我人生负上所有的责任